To be perfectly frank, I’ve been thinking about writing Season Reviews for a while now. The problem is, what and how would I review?
Welcome to another edition of “Can’t Sleep Reviews”, where I write a review when I should probably be sleeping!
So, I just posted the “I need speak” monologue, but I wanted to notify everyone on a lighter note.
I just wanted to say that I have a couple stories up on Fanfiction.net, FictionPress, and wattpad, that I feel fairly proud of. If you’re at all interested, read the first chapter of my Touhou fanfic to get a taste of what my stories are like. If you don’t like it, you have no obligation to read more. But if you do like it, by all means read more!
I also greatly encourage feedback, as it helps me write better, faster, and with more ideas on where to go. So, leave a review to let me know what’s good and what’s not.
My username is MarcosiasIsif, as you probably guessed, so please check me out!
Thanks again, everyone! I’ll get those reviews out soon!
Hello to all who read this. As you probably know, my name is Marcosias, and I’m the author of this blog.
As is no doubt aware from the sporadic posts and broad nature of said posts, I am fairly bad at keeping schedules. There are many things that I want to post about, but I either forget or lack the drive to do so consistently. This post is to address exactly why.
Apologies in advance if the writing starts to tangent, but I need to put these thoughts somewhere.
As some of my readers and friends may know, I have Major Depressive Disorder, also called major depression. This means that, at random times, I may suddenly feel a sense of loneliness, self-depravity, or inferiority – sometimes this has a trigger, sometimes it just happens. But at all times, it is an inconvenience to me.
In the past 7 years, I have attempted suicide upwards of ten times – the most drastic of which being November and December 2014, where I was admitted to the ER by police escorts twice in the course of two months. During this time, I was under watch for about 5 days, where I stayed in the hospital.
While I haven’t tried anything in the past year or so, I constantly think about it. In those thoughts, the idea of being useless, never achieving my goals, financial worries, and fear of failure constantly take over. The term “struggling with depression” doesn’t seem to fit; struggling implies I think I have a chance to get past it. In my case, at the very least, I never feel truly better.
To try and combat these symptoms, I try to laugh a lot, even going so far as to fake smiles and laughs. I make daily goals on getting people to smile, whether its my friends, coworkers, family, or even strangers that I see on the street. My friends think that I’ve improved – I’ve got a new job that I like, I have some games that I spend my free time on, and I even started making a new TRPG that seems to be working out all right.
But in all honesty, it feels like I’m just lying.
Even when I laugh uncontrollably at Markiplier, or see a touching scene in a movie or anime, I can’t stop thinking about how the world would be a better place without me. I’m wasteful, passive, spiteful, and harsh, and to be honest, I hate everyone that I meet.
… For the most part.
The thing about depression is, even when you know the feelings of uselessness and inferiority are untrue, you cannot stop believing them. Its as if you were told it from the day you were born, and no one ever corrected it.
I constantly feel sick to my stomach just looking in the mirror, and I can never stop thinking that my friends just pretend to put up with me.
I want to scream as loud as I can, for as long as I can.
I want to punch someone or something as hard as I can.
I want to hurt everyone, including myself.
But, because that is looked down upon by society, I grit my teeth into a smile and bottle it up. It hurts to feel like this, but being unable to cry. To forget things constantly, but always remember the bad things.
To hurt the ones you love, when you just want to die.
Now to clarify, I’m not telling you to go out and shout how you want to commit suicide. I’m not condoning it, nor am I saying that everyone with depression feels the same way. Like all of my posts, this is how I, personally, feel [when I’m depressed].
Sorry for speaking so much, but I needed to say this. To everyone who reads my posts, thanks for sticking with me. Reviews for Zestiria X, Zestiria the Game, Berseria, and the Monogatari series are coming soon, with other reviews possibly in between.
-Marcosias A. Isif
The first of a collection of games I am going to review is one that I had avoided on PSN for the longest time. And by the longest time, I mean a week. When it first came out, I thought AT was a game similar to the plot of Highschool of the Dead – that is, tits, ass, and zombies. Technically, I was right.
I would like to warn viewers of this review that this game contains partial nudity, scenes of graphic clothes ripping, and completely crude humor relating to otaku culture. You have been warned. Now on with the show!
Game Review: AKIBA’STRIP (or Akiba’s Trip)
Platform: PSN (Initial release for PS3 and Vita, later release for PS4)
Price:$49.99 (New, US)*
Genre: Open World 3rd Person JRPG with Character Customization
The good thing about a good number of XSEED and Acquire (And in this case, Marvelous USA) is that they know when to take their game seriously – or for Akiba’s Trip, when to not. I have to admit, while I didn’t originally intend on enjoying this game, I was pleasantly surprised by the amount I gleaned from it.
Akiba’s Trip takes place in (you guessed it) Akihabara, Japan, where you wake up in a secret hideout, where you’ve apparently been experimented on. From there, you escape with a girl named Shizuku, and are brought to the realization that you are a vampire, in the most basic senses – and if your body becomes completely exposed to the sunlight, you will die. Immediately, the game becomes a choice-driven game, with some options favoring you towards some girls (yes, it is a dating sim), and others, towards you’re death – you can even die during the prologue!
The game features many different landmarks in Japan’s otaku wonderland, from the bustling streets to the anime-heavy boardwalks. Many of the advertisements in-game are actual reference to other XSEED, Marvelous, and Acquire games, as well as a special NISA game that is well-known by Prinny fans.
(From this point, the post has been edited on 1/3/2017.)
Since there’s not much else to say about this game (it’s better experienced than talked about), I’ll try my hardest to give this game a fair and unbiased review.
The story is new, but it is definitely lacking in substance. Some of the characters seem forced, although there is a clear distinction of when the characters want to move the plot forward, and when there’s nothing going on (other than you being a vampire-thing). Sometimes it’s bothering, sometimes it’s funny; but the amount of times it happens may annoy a player to never come back.
Art/ Acting: 4/5
Like i said earlier, some characters seem forced, while others have no purpose whatsoever. The art style is reminiscent of Musashi: Samurai Legend (which was a great game with an awesome art style), but it’s definitely not the same thing.
As for the acting, I will admit that I didn’t use Japanese voices, which is usually a TERRIBLY BAD DECISION for translated games. However, I was pleasantly surprised to not only hear voice actors that I both knew and didn’t know, but that their acting matched the image of the characters that they played for.
It’s not rare for a game with dating sim elements to have good character growth – in fact, I think it would be preferred. While the minor characters have their fitting problems, the main romances (and the main villains) do a good job of fitting their roles: Shizuku is generally mysterious and quiet, Kasugai has the “slutty teacher” vibe down pat, and even the final boss doesn’t seem totally forced. If I had one complaint, it’s that Kati is useless in battle and doesn’t have her own route.
2/5 (PC Version)
As you’ve probably noticed, this category has a separate Playability for the PC version, which came out as I was writing this review (this may also have impacted my view of the Vita version in the long run). This is mainly because the Steam / PC version of Akiba’s Trip is fairly glitchy. Some side missions don’t load properly, a good number of graphical and continuity glitches happen often, and every now and then, the game crashes altogether. In addition, the game tends to lag greatly on higher settings (this including the fact that my PC is made for high-process gaming, and runs fine with 152-mod Skyrim.)
In contrast, the Vita version had very few of these (the continuity glitch would appear every now and then, but it wasn’t EVERY MISSION). After completing the game, which can net you around 20-50 hours if you do every Side and Sister Mission, you can restart the game with a new “body”; that is, as a girl, rather than a guy, if you so choose. But even then, there’s still plenty to do: there’s hidden events everywhere, clothes to collect, and (with the New Game +) a Route Tracker, which tells you what Partner Route each choice will put you on, if any. There’s also an arena where you can get better clothes and more money, but I recommend doing that during regular play.
Overall Rating: 72/100 C-
60/100 D- (PC)
As you could probably guess, this game is very interesting. I would have liked to see more to it (such as more than two villain characters, or a few more romantic choices for the ladies), but where it is seems good for now. My biggest problems would be the continuity glitch – for those asking, there are times when certain quest targets won’t appear in the designated area; or when you’re told to “enter an area alone”, but have no one else in your party. Obviously, I give the PC version a much lower score, both from experience and malice, but overall, it’s nice to have it on a bigger screen.
I recommend the Vita version for anyone looking for an Anime-style game for handhelds, or if you just like stripping people forcibly (not judging, just saying).
It appears that an anime series is being released starting on the 4th that is a departure from the game(s), so check it out if you end up liking this.
*Based on GameStop Online prices on March 5th, 2015. As far as I’m aware, the price is the same for all consoles.